hello. i am an 18 year old dude that lives in the u.s with an asian mother. i go to japan from time to time so its definately not a stereotypical thing. from early childhood my mother seems to have problems dealing with anger or projecting her stress in various ways. i understand that she is just seeking attention from my own observations but the way she expresses her anger and the short fuse she has is just abnormal. today she was exploding and using a bunch of swearwords and screaming hysterically because her and my father rented a boring movie. although this is a easily solveable problem for the average person later tonight this could involve the police. (like multiple incidents in the past). It is extremely stressful for me to deal with this. one time she was waving a knife around and threatened to stab me. this was when i was maybe about 10 years old. her eyes get bloodshot she starts screaming and now she wants to kill me and kill herself. still to this day i dont know why she did that or what triggered her anger. but she said something about losing her friends because of me. she frequently has these parties in my house then on the phone later at night i hear her screaming at her friends. (from my room). (yes i have my own room). (but the lock on the room is broken so it doesnt even lock anymore lol..) i make this sound like a joke and its really not and fr years ive been trying to get help. I tried going to a psychiatrist ad he didnt really help very much. my school social workers dont understand. and my mom puts on a good act in public that she is very calm. she obviously isnt very calm because soon as she gets in the car with me back from school or back in the house when she comes home. she uses various degrees of regression projection and other childlike behaviors such as screaming stomping or throwing eggs at my dads car. i really want some logicall answers besides moving out. because i dont have a car a job or any sort of savings. or friends that would let me live with them. (still in high school). or seeking professional help because that obviously didnt solve anything. or having her seek professional help. because we all know. we tried many many times. she doesnt want to accept her problems plus no one can diagnose her with anything if she acts normal in public.