Hello, my name is Ben and I recently turned 16 years old, and I am in fifth form / year 11 at High School.
Anyway, over the past year and a half, I have been incredibly interested in the concept of enlightenment, and so have been reading a lot about philosophy, psychology and basically anything concerning the nature of existence or thought, and how different thought processes occur and change.
Anyway, because of my immense interest in enlightenment over the past year, in my spare time I have been reading everything I can about different philosophical doctrines and ideas/theories, most notably Zen, (as well as lots of other types of Buddhism), Existentialism, Absurdism, and Idealism, though I have been reading other ideas and theories such as Solipsism, Epistemology, Ontology, and also Nondualism. I have also been reading a little about Nihilism as well but I try to not read too much into that as I find it is just a bit too negative for me.
However, through learning about such philosophies and agreeing and connecting with them (or believing that my mind connects with them, haha) I have recently become to regard certain things as more important, but also I have begun to disregard certain things, which other people around me have become concerned about.
Put simply, my priorities have changed.
I won’t go into detail about the things which I DO find more important now, but I will discuss the most major thing that I do not find important anymore.
H I G H S C H O O L
After learning the things I have learnt about philosopy, the nature of thought, of existence etc I have begun to disregard my high school education. I just don’t really care anymore…
On the days when I’m at school, I find I have the strongest urge to just find a quiet, peaceful place and just sit and meditate and rid myself of thoughts.
I don’t mean that I disregard all education in general, as I have the strongest desire to attend university when I have the chance, I just mean that I don’t see the point in me putting much effort into high school anymore.
Please share your opinions on my situation.
I would appreciate it if you didn’t just tell me to FOCUS ON SCHOOL, but to actually provide a sincere, honest and preferably learned perspective about my new belief and attitude towards my high school education.
Thanks a lot
P.S. – My apologies if my question doesn’t make sense at times, or seems hard to understand in certain places, as I had to write this in a hurry and didn’t have time to fully check how well I expressed myself.
Again, thanks! =D
I understand that feeling but finishing school first should be your highest priority. I mean what insight you gained was because you were in school not out of it. After you graduate and even if you need home to pursue this idea than do so. But my advice for now is while you are taken care of at home and by your parents. You should live as peaceably as possible by their rules and I know one priority for them is to see you finish your education.
Speaking as a parent.