have been lazy since I was 16. I have a good potential but I am just plain lazy(to study , to clean etc,,) I want to become a Flash Developer so I would study 1 day then do nothing for 4 days then I have to restart all over again. Lack of motivation? I don’t know a long time ago I was a passionate by chess , would play all day but would refuse to study the new variances in the opening book. I want to change my life with Zen!! I noticed that I dream very deeply since I start Zen Meditation. Can Zen change my life & make me a winner? I am 48 I need to change now!!