Upon surrendering “myself” to God over and over after the death of a marriage a genuine transformation was taking place and still continues.
The fears that blanketed me from the past were swept away, (the “yoke” was released).
The taste of certain foods were intensified and found most I enjoyed before were very bland. Spicy foods became hotter and realized milk chocolate was not as tasty as dark chocolate.
My vision was clearer and colors were very vivid. I couldn’t believe how blue the sky was or how blinding bright orange and red the sunsets were. My vision up close is more blurry.
My third ear opened also. Noises that once would not even phase me would resonate so loudly I would have to walk away fast. Going to certain large stores over stimulate me and have to be begged or dragged to go in them. The lights are too bright along with all the stuff and too many people.
I felt I didn’t even know who I was and still do to this day. It is almost like having amnesia or a new soul that over took your body. To me it is a return to the child inside.
I became a child and enjoyed jumping on beds, swinging on swings and just playing. This is all part of awakening. It has been a tough road being awake because you see the good, bad and ugly. You aren’t dismissive, but know you have to be in certain situations because no one is going to understand. You love everyone and don’t understand why. You may get angry at others, but you easily forgive. You find the good in everyone, including yourself.
You wonder if there are others out here like you and when you do find them, they are very validating for you. You have infinite empathy. You feel everything around you. Sometimes you feel as if you can just melt into a tree.
I have been reading a book by Adyashanti and what he has said validates what happened to me.
Your mind is so clear because you surrendered yourself and gave up. This allows your true nature to come through. You believe and just know everything is going to be okay.
We still have an ego as long as we are living here on this earth, guess it is to survive, but you desire to become one with everything.
Hope this helps.