I’ve always had a somewhat humble spirit but I was confident and had an ego(not a big one, but I had one). Once I started on my spiritual path I have recognized my prideful ways and have abolished them and still working everyday to keep myself in check. My only problem is that now I’ve noticed that I’ve lost my self-confidence. Although my mind is a lot more a ease I’ve kind of lost a little of my spunk. I used to really not care what people thought of me and now I find myself being self-conscious at times. I think that while purifying myself of my old ways my self confidence has diminished. As if I cant remain humble if I am confident. How do I find a balance?
You need to find strength in your successes and your ability to overcome difficulties.
If you tell everyone how good you are or what you accomplished, then you really aren’t as good as you think. Imagine a person telling people how funny he is instead of simply making them laugh.
I used to brag, make up stories about things I’ve done, and tell everyone how amazing I am. I found once I stopped doing that and focused on actually improving myself, a lot of people tell me what a good person I am. That builds self-esteem more then me telling them.
Be patient in your quest. You’ll never one day wake up and and be enlightened. It comes slowly, but keep not showing off.