i have recently felt something awaken in me. a greater understanding. i am now studying crypto-history on the occult and christianity. also the search for the holy grail through the opening of the centres of vision, also called the third eye. also similar or the same as far eastern ideas into meditation and the extra senses ie lotus flowers and organs that can be awakened through meditation.

soon after my studies(1 day) started, i had a dream that seemed to be similar to parsivals visits and quests for the grail. i believe i may have visited the well of kunaware but was attacked by a spirit or the dragon that sits above the globe(chakra). it sent me back to my body but i was still in dream state. i was very scared that the spirit could still find me so i forced myself awake. according to myth, the grail can only be found by remaking the word sword in the waters under the globe(chakra) that the dragon sits atop. i believe it says you must defeat the dragon according to myth. all this can only be done before the dawn, which is the unwaking contiouness.

anyway, i just want someone who is more experienced in these things to discuss and maybe teach me more about the history.

btw, i know it sounds crazy but it is just kind of a hobby of mine right now that feels like it could be important.