I am trying to become enlightened… and i just seem to be getting frustrated… i understand non duality and i recognize it… I am a mom to 2 and expecting another one… I am emotionally on a roller coaster, and I just want to find pure happiness and less stress… I have the book by eckart tolle… awakinging to your life’s purpose or something like that… Will that help me? I sometimes think that there is this secret life, or feeling, or something that people are aware of and they just don’t talk about… i feel like I am being left behind as one of the people who have no clue about this spiritual awakening… and i just want to be a part of it… Will it help to listen to 311? I know that their music is thought to enlighten people. At the moment I feel sad and frustrated that i cannot figure this whole thing out… I feel like I need help, but I have no one to talk to. My husband is the most un spiritual person I know… I’m so confused.. HELP.