this is for people who are interested in spiritual awakening, and if you are an atheist I have an alien conspiracy website you can go debunk (www.abovetopsecret.com), in addition I will not be responding to any comments because of the ignorant retorts that atheists like to dish out on here.
With that said, I was raised a Catholic but never really paid much attention to it all. In fact I hated catholic school more than anything else. It was horrifying. But anyway, that was a temporary phase, no one really believed that, and in college I started experimenting with drugs and such, but those didn’t really make me happy. In fact I was a bit depressed, not clinically or anything, because I kept it a secret, but if I had gone to a hospital and confessed my “sins” (small joke) they would have put me on medicine. But other than that I was appeared happy even though I was never really satisfied with my life. And then after the Iraq war started I noticed a lot of commotion going on in the religious area. I was never into politics but I could tell that the religious right were at it again. So I decided to look into some things on my own. During an english class we had to write about a religious topic, so I choose meditation. I researched meditation and tried it myself. Doing it for just a few moments, I realize that some of my addictive cravings subsided. I continued on with it, and started studying Buddhism. By that point I was hooked. I was amazed by Buddhism mostly because the goal of Buddhism was “enlightenment.” Never in my life had anyone mentioned this as a goal that could be reached. In my family life it was all about following rules, at school it was about getting good grades, and in college it was about getting laid. But with Buddhism, there was a new realm of wisdom and learning that never seemed like an option before. I immediately took to it and my depression was cured. For the first time in my life I was really happy. And I continue to be happy, six years later. I have my down moments, especially when I think about how backwards people in the world are, but I take solace in expressing my story and my spiritual values to people. I also found a book called the Consolation of Philosophy, which is great for beginners and offers a no nonsense course in metaphysics and spirituality, minus all the asserted doctrines. The baghavad Gita, the Hindu text, for example, is very passionate, but a little on the indoctrinating side. The Upanishads is wonderful, as well, but none explain things so clearly as the Consolation. I highly recommend it as well as the Upanishads. But other than that, I take great pride in telling my spiritual story to others. When I do it face to face with people, they can barely comprehend what I’m saying and usually don’t allow me to talk fully about it, which is why I come here. And unfortunately there are a lot of atheists who like to discredit people like me, but to each their own. So if you are out there and have been searching for something more, I highly recommend meditation.
that is all for now. peace.