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If there is a god, why did he abandon me?

Back in 1995, back when I was a Christian, I went through a crisis of faith. On Christmas Eve of that year, I was trying desperately to hold on to my faith, and I attended a church service with my Brother’s Father-in-Law (the only one in the family who decided to go with him!). At that service, the preacher was talking about how Christmas would be a good time to re-invite Christ into your life and all that. It sounded good to me, so much so that that night, I invited Jesus back into my heart once again, and decided to forget about all the doubts I was having. I just knew God was with me, and would be forever. I even started attending church regularly again. This was all well and good. Until the doubts started coming back, but not as strongly as before. But still, my faith dwindled away. And by the time of the terrorist attacks of 9-11, my faith had all but left me. I tried talking to a Priest about it, but after a particularly bad Sunday service on September 30, 2001, I was praying and hand this great revelation. I knew instantly there was no God, and my eyes were opened to the beauty of the world and the freedom of life unbounded by religion. It was a Spiritual Awakening, only in reverse. If there was a God, why would he totally abandon me like that, and let me see how great the world was without him in it?


  1. The Earth is in polarity- what the bible calls good and evil.
    20,000 years ago there was a massive Nuclear War between Atlantis, and Lemuria. This even caused the planet between Mars and Jupiter to break apart.
    And the Earth has been quarantined ever since.

  2. “Inviting Christ into your life” never saves anyone.
    It is only BELIEVING IN JESUS for His free gift of salvation, that saves. And then Jesus NEVER abandons the believer.
    There is a difference. You either believe in Jesus, or you don’t. No amount of “invitations” will change unbelief.
    Jesus loves you so very much, and absolutely wants you to believe and be saved right now! 😀

  3. You talk about your faith leaving you and God abandoning you but gues what. God doesn’t move, we are the ones who leave him. We can’t always see or feel him but he is always there.

  4. God abandoned you? NEVER!
    1 Chronicles 28:9 (KJV)
    And thou, Solomon my son, know thou the God of thy father, and serve him with a perfect heart and with a willing mind: for the LORD searcheth all hearts, and understandeth all the imaginations of the thoughts: if thou seek him, he will be found of thee; but if thou forsake him, he will cast thee off for ever.

  5. If you are serious in my humble opinion you ask a very good question.You sound like an intelligent man.I would like to ask you a question-exactly what is a spiritual awakening in reverse?Maybe I’m wrong but it doesn’t sound possible .A spiritual awakening cannot be reversed can it?Just wondering

  6. Sad to say that on sep 30 ’01, that “revelation” was the devil taking advantage of your week spiritual state. We are week humans, mortals, that will NEVER understand in full ANYTHING really. The devil has lied to you, and you know it. Life is simple, but not easy. You have simply accepted the “easy” way out. Everyday is a test, every situation is too. Most of us not only fail, most of us quit. God did not abandon you, you left him for something else.

  7. With Christianity it seems that you have to believe at some point that you and perhaps everyone else is sick and corrupted without Christ. Otherwise, why would anyone have the incentive to be saved if there was nothing wrong with them? But not everyone is sick. It seems that life can justify life without some mystical presence there to pull our strings in order to make us dance like puppets. It again seems that the strong, clear minded who love life for what it is have no use for religion.

  8. Because You are a Very Fat Lazy Man who is just an excuse for Humanity as seen in your Avatar pic
    Edit:At least shave! its not that hard

  9. Sept 10th, 2000, I also had a revelation. I had not been to church in a while, not since my youngest daughter had turned 2 or 3….and still, every now and then, I would get visions.
    I saw the Shadow of the Valley of Death, and on the crest of the hill lining the valley, stood a numberless array of knights, seated upon chargers that were so still, I could barely believe they were alive. Beside each horseman was a woman who held his weapons, and infront of each woman was a child, who held the reins of the horse.
    I did not know why they were so still, for looking into the valley, I saw how colorless and dull it was, the people of all the world were set in their villages, and towns and cities…I could see quite well every single person if I wanted …and between the communities in this dull land, moved a dark river that at first, I could not comprehend what it was. It looked sick. It broke apart in places and re-coalesced as if made from the ichor of mythical beasts….and when I observed for a while, I was startled to discover they were hordes upon hordes of demons, casting about hungrily, let loose upon the vast earth, delighting in every sorrow and pain they could visit upon their victims.
    I realized at the same time, that those who stood waiting upon the hill could hear clearly the cries of help that came faintly to my ears, and as is the wont with visions, I understood the eagerness of these people…even of the horses…to jump at once into the fray, and to rescue every person who cried out so piteously.
    And I realized also, the reason for their eerie stillness: so that they would not miss hearing the word of their commander to charge.
    And when they do charge, the very hooves of those horses would bring a color to that dull landscape that the people who lived there had never seen or realized before….and the force of that charge would make the hordes of tormentors disappear like a puff of smoke.

  10. sometimes we think like some of the people in Jesus’ time when they taunted him–“if you are really God’s son, come down off of that cross and save yourself”. We must try to be brave and fight the good fight all the way to the end like our little Debra M ( a Catholic) on this site who raised everybody up with her presence all the while she was dieing

  11. “I was praying and hand this great revelation. I knew instantly there was no God, and my eyes were opened to the beauty of the world and the freedom of life unbounded by religion.”
    From whence did you receive this revelation? From a vacuum? from the Universe?
    From Richard Dawkins?
    Truth cannot come from a vacuum…….Whenever you find yourself separated from God,,,God did not move….you did. He did not abandon you….you abandoned Him.
    Many are called but few are chosen.
    We must fight the good fight and run the good race in order to be on the medal postrum.
    You stopped fighting and stopped running.
    God says “It you seek Me you will find Me.” You must repent of all sin and believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and you shall be saved. You must make Him Lord of your life…I hope you listen and repent…..I shall pray for you. I ask all other believers to do likewise.

  12. This reminds me of a scripture in the Book of Mormon.
    “But behold, the devil hath deceived me; for he appeared unto me in the form of an angel, and said unto me: Go and reclaim this people, for they have all gone astray after an unknown God. And he said unto me: There is no God; yea, and he taught me that which I should say. And I have taught his words; and I taught them because they were pleasing unto the carnal mind; and I taught them, even until I had much success, insomuch that I verily believed that they were true; and for this cause I withstood the truth, even until I have brought this great curse upon me.” (Alma 30:53)
    Joseph Smith asked the same question while he languished in jail. Liberty Jail was a cold dark dungeon. He spent many months there, but there was never a conviction – no trial was ever held.
    Here is the Lord’s answer:
    “If thou art called to pass through tribulation; if thou art in perils among false brethren; if thou art in perils among robbers; if thou art in perils by land or by sea;
    If thou art accused with all manner of false accusations; if thine enemies fall upon thee; if they tear thee from the society of thy father and mother and brethren and sisters; and if with a drawn sword thine enemies tear thee from the bosom of thy wife, and of thine offspring, and thine elder son, although but six years of age, shall cling to thy garments, and shall say, My father, my father, why can’t you stay with us? O, my father, what are the men going to do with you? and if then he shall be thrust from thee by the sword, and thou be dragged to prison, and thine enemies prowl around thee like wolves for the blood of the lamb;
    And if thou shouldst be cast into the pit, or into the hands of murderers, and the sentence of death passed upon thee; if thou be cast into the deep; if the billowing surge conspire against thee; if fierce winds become thine enemy; if the heavens gather blackness, and all the elements combine to hedge up the way; and above all, if the very jaws of hell shall gape open the mouth wide after thee, know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good.” (D&C 122:7)
    Almost all of this actually happened to Joseph Smith; save perhaps being cast into the deep and the parts that followed. He was accosted by robbers many times, betrayed by false brethren, tarred and feathered while his youngest child slowly died of exposure, falsely accused, taken at bayonette point away from his wife and children, taken to prison, cast into the pit, forced to listen to the evil designs of his enemies, and repeatedly threatened with death.

  13. God can’t hold our hands and whipe our cracks… You need to do most of the work, choose whats right.
    Bad things happen to good people because they need trials in there life to keep them ‘good people’


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