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I swear to myself often in my mind (and sometimes aloud.) What is my problem? Do I have Tourette's Syndrome?

I am a 42 year old man. Often, while reflecting upon events of the day which I seem to replay and critique too much, I find myself saying the words “Bitc*! (female dog), or Fuc*!” intensely (as if I was angry) at myself. I didn’t think it was audible but my roomate has reported to me that she sometimes hears me from across the house (and wonders what she did to pis* me off (smile.)) Most of the time it seems to come from the subconscious and I find it overly compelling to say these specific words over and over at inpredictable intervals (maybe 4-5 minutes apart on average at night — maybe 20 – 30 times a day.) I generally am not an angry person though I do seem to have “issues” with feeling like a man (I might be too passive) and I have issues with many women who have hurt me in the past (no, i definately am no gay.) What is my problem? How can I get rid of this annoying, degrading, and embarassing problem. Any serious advise is appreciated. Thanks

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  1. I doubt that you have Tourettes, it would likely to have been an issue way before now if you had. Get theapy and deal with the other issues and Im sure you will be much better;

  2. Most people who have Tourette SYndrome don’t swear out loud, but some do. This is the Hollywood depiction of the disease. If you can consciously control it, I’d say no problem- maybe a little anxiety. IF you don’t have control of it, go to your doctor- he might recommentd some kind of anxiolytic med, ot get you out of your head a bit. Good luck.

  3. you sre showing signs of releasing aggression or aggitation ,this could be that you are not feeling in total control of your life or are not happy at how your life is going try to relax more and at least you realise you are doing this ,people with this illness have no idea they are doing it ,so take a good looik at youe life and clean out any corners that have been bugging you take some control over things ,try and live in a more stress free enviroment.

  4. For the cussing, just try to be aware that you are saying it. Tourette’s is a tic disorder, and if you have it, you will also have other motor tics (such as shoulder shrugging, or moving you lips or eyebrows for example.) It sounds as though you are cussing to make yourself feel better while brooding. It sounds like some anxiety that you are getting rid of. I would suggest a therapist who specializes in Anxiety disorders. Hopefully they can help you to stop replaying these events, and the cussing will go away with it.

  5. Just try to imagine you have a 3 yr. old child with you all day long ,who, by the way is going to repeat everything you say at the most embarrasssing or inoppertune time. Then of course, you’ll be left to explain where the child got such language and why the reacted to whatever was said in the manner that the child did. this should curb , at least the “out loud” cussing.

  6. It sounds more like obsessive compulsive disorder which is basicallyTourette syndrome w/out tics. The main symptom of TS/OCD/ADHD that all have is mindracing? Do you think constantly and are not able to shut off your mind enough to relax?
    Is it like there is a tornado in your head?
    Any type of antidepressant should help with your symptoms and might even stop your problem.

  7. I too am quite a passive person so I let things that piss me off build up instead of dealing with them or the people at the time it occurs.
    When I’m alone I think about what I should have done which includes swearing and such.
    We might have the same issue.
    I also get road rage sometimes over the most irrelevant things. It’s just that that one incident can set me off.
    I have since bought a really loud car horn and when frustrated, smack the horn pad and start screaming and laughing. Doesn’t have to be for any particular reason, just makes me feel better.

  8. I just found your blog because I was searching the same thing, most people don’t notice because I can keep it to myself but my partner always used to ask me what I am saying and I can only say that I am taking to myself. I think she thinks I am schizophrenic but I never speak to voices, I only replay memories and tent to react to those memories out loud. Its totoally controllable, I am 33, although I worry that its getting less controllable with age.
    I tend to agree with comments thats its probably an anxiety disorder of sorts, I prefer to avoid meds but I worry that lifestyle choices may be fueling it.

  9. I just found your blog because I was searching the same thing, most people don’t notice because I can keep it to myself but my partner always used to ask me what I am saying and I can only say that I am taking to myself. I think she thinks I am schizophrenic but I never speak to voices, I only replay memories and tent to react to those memories out loud. Its totoally controllable, I am 33, although I worry that its getting less controllable with age.
    I tend to agree with comments thats its probably an anxiety disorder of sorts, I prefer to avoid meds but I worry that lifestyle choices may be effecting it.

  10. I just found your blog because I was searching the same thing, most people don’t notice because I can keep it to myself but my partner always used to ask me what I am saying and I can only say that I am taking to myself. I think she thinks I am schizophrenic but I never speak to voices, I only replay memories and tent to react to those memories out loud. Its totoally controllable in public, I am 33, although I worry that its getting less controllable with age.
    I tend to agree with comments thats its probably an anxiety disorder of sorts, I prefer to avoid meds but I worry that lifestyle choices may be effecting it.

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