I had had a spiritual awakening while I was staying with this man. We had just had a baby and it was a new beginning for my life, where I’d wanted to be! I’d had a run-in with a man prior to my husband who had showed me God and made me a believer. I felt as though I needed to start a new life and do right by him and his teachings. I have always practiced yoga and yoga teaches to focus on God. He had told me I was a perfect person and in this I had found the confidence to do things perfectly. I feel as though I have really messed things up and I don’t know how to make it all right again. I know many people were praying for me and I feel as though I failed at my second chance to live life on the right path. I don’t know what to do with my life now to make things right again. I feel as though I let the entire world down when my husband and I did not work out. He was always so entranced with worldly things like friends and sex with other females and I was searching for God and an understanding of Him, which I had attained. Him and I couldn’t find a level ground, we were constantly fighting and he was violent toward me, which was okay because sometimes I could understand what would make him feel like doing this.
Please God, give me one more chance, help me remember how to live the way you have instilled in me.