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Ego/ higher consciousness struggle?

I have stifled the higher conscious/ inner/ god energy (which generally comes through writing)for years because the revelations I was experiencing were giving me severe panic attacks.
I kept being reassured not to be afraid, but still I am. I am afraid to trust for fear of becoming severely mentally ill (that’s if us crackpots aren’t already!). But I also have realised that deep down I am keen to continue.
Is there anyone else who understands what I am going on about here?
Are you going through this or have you overcome it? Are you happy to take two minutes to talk to me and offer any guidance please?

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aeiou_i
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aeiou_i

This is a nice experience with the ego. There is also interesting discussion about ego death in the forum:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_s376qEZGY0&feature=related

In this link you may dig some info which might be helpful:

http://www.shamanista.com/

livestium
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livestium

I kind of understand, I had an experience several years ago when I had a vision. at the time I found it disturbing, and impossible to comprehend. It took me years to come to terms with and fully understand, I learnt to look within and know myself, to find the God, Holy Spirit or higher power within and trust in it. As you must also learn, you wont go crazy if you learn to relax, don’t fight it, let it carry you. I believe meditation would be helpful for you in coming to know and accept your true self. and… Read more »

supastremph
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supastremph

What is there, other than this mind? What do you have to fear? As long as it is useful, use it. If it is not useful, then how does it differ from idle daydreaming? The key lies in separating understanding from imagination, but can anyone else show you the way?:

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AgBs_vl8vxsCtdtcytvYaALsy6IX;_ylv=3?qid=20090408192443AAT8lXA

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Your ego is the only part of you that is experiencing fear. Ego knows it’s fighting a losing battle. Ego was never meant to be in control. So, know your fear is from ego and that will make it easier to get rid of. What you write down, don’t worry about it. Do you focus mentally on good or bad things? It makes a difference. What you are given is not a personal thing, it is just knowledge.

Old guy
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Old guy

So how is it working out being me? And oh by the way, have I decided what exactly that entails? Years of delusion, Pride, Vanity and always guilty These destructive friends have been the wind in my sails While all along I have floated within your ocean of love. Silent and perfect has been your strength and patience While I and my ego have believed in only one thing from the start My ability to ever truly be separate from you, my creative essence So is it true that you desire the love of my heart? This hearts so full… Read more »

Umbra
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Umbra

The Buddhist speak of ego death, fear is just ego running scared, if you’re nothing then there’s nothing to fear.

In other words stop freaking yourself out.

Caboose
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Caboose

You may want to discuss this with a counselor/psychologist.

Greg
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Greg

Self fulfilling psychosis.

Try to spend as much time in the real world as possible, no matter how awesome you think your “revelations” are.

From where I stand, its just in your head… unless… let me take a look at these writings!