I want to better understand myself and i need to see if anyone else believes in what i believe in. Plus there is something grounding about seeing your inner thoughts posted for people to reply about so here it goes. I grew up going to catholic church. My family is not religious and it never cought on me. I have never felt any connection to it nor do i want to believe in such a fear my wrath kind of supiorior being. At least that is how the church is imprinted in my brain. I chose to find my own beliefs without any influences from books. I started to believe that each one of us, or at least myself, could find in our selfs the ability to find strength and peace and generally fight our own fears with self understanding. Since i have started embarking on this journy i have had many ups and downs and doubts and reasurrences. I have found a deep connection with bhuddsm, but really only the meditation parts and the stuff dealing with energy. I havent really clicked with the idealogy. I want to know that im not the only person who tries to look inside themselfs for the strentgh we need to live every day. I feel very alone and disconnected many times because i dont have a religion i truly connect with and that brings me great sorrow. But i feel that i have found a way to enjoy things in a different aspect then most people could ever dream, i feel so alive and connected with the universe sometimes. But then i loose the connection, but each time i connect i feel completely in tune and it gives me strength each time. Does anyone have any expierences like this, does anyone have any advice to feel more connecteed with people spiritually, any good websites?