after a year of nothing but trouble, a few months ago i had my spiritual awakening. i was sober for about three weeks, then the first party i decided to let myself go to, i drank. I felt so guilty. Those three weeks of sobriety were AMAZING god really worked through me and with me. Ever since the party, things just haven’t been the same. Why Don’t I feel so connected now?? Am i distancing myself from him because i know im being a hypocrite?? I like going to parties but, i know it’s not the right environment for me. this may be a dumb question but is there a way to do both? im once again sitting on the fence. one side is god, the other is a party social life. why is it so hard to decide? And where can i find friends that can actually have SOBER fun, i guess im not looking in the right place! ADVICE PLEASE!