Having been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and put on a stabilizing regimen of medications, I have not only been dealing with the stress of maintaining a “normal” front in order to continue regular daily schedules (work, research, social life, exercise, etc.) but also find myself putting up a guard against a rather bizarre and highly infuriating family situation.
A self-described Native American medicine person, my mother has decided that my bipolar disorder is being exacerbated and heightened by an evil spiritual entity. She has said that I am influenced by my former “dealings with soul-draining entities and demonic spirits” (in my teenage years, I was a goth and avid vampire fan) and insists I undergo a “soul retrieval ceremony.” I have absolutely no intention of doing so and have been both on the defensive and a bit aggressive in response to her continual emotional attacks. Not only does she claim these spiritual visions of “what she has been shown,” but she also believes I am going to end up a very lonely person because I will push away everyone I care about and fail to have any fulfilling relationships.
I have no idea how to deal with this/respond to this anymore. We have already gotten in so many fights that I can’t and don’t want to do so, but just talking to her about any subject whatsoever her response is ALWAYS spiritual (because she claims “it’s just who she is.”). I’ve tried to be respectful of her die-hard beliefs but am getting tired of her attacks on my already precipitous emotional well-being. I know that I can often shift back and forth between perspectives about my family’s view of my disorder and my emotional ups and downs, and I also know that I can be volatile and cruel at times… but I’m not sure I deserve this treatment.
Any ideas or words of advice? I’ve run out of ways to handle this.