About a month ago i started having a series if events that has since completely emptied me from the inside out and my life as i know it. Everything I have and everyone I know is falling apart around me. My entire family is really no longer a family my husband tried to kill himself so I wouldn’t leave him. I’m not religious but I am going to church today. I feel like someone is trying to tell me something I just can’t hear it. I wonder if I’m going crazy none of this feels like it can actually be happening to me. I know it is happening but why? Am I havig an awakening or am I crazy?