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Am I having a spiritual awakening or im going crazy?

About a month ago i started having a series if events that has since completely emptied me from the inside out and my life as i know it. Everything I have and everyone I know is falling apart around me. My entire family is really no longer a family my husband tried to kill himself so I wouldn’t leave him. I’m not religious but I am going to church today. I feel like someone is trying to tell me something I just can’t hear it. I wonder if I’m going crazy none of this feels like it can actually be happening to me. I know it is happening but why? Am I havig an awakening or am I crazy?


  1. You’re having a life. It gets messy sometimes. Religion is one way people deal with that, so no, it’s not crazy. It doesn’t mean a god will appear just because you need one, but you may find comfort in the congregation. If that works for you, go for it. If you just want some company and to do selfless things, try the Secular Humanists. You’ll feel just as good… no god added. 😉

  2. Neither. I think that you are currently having some rotten times in your life (it happens to everyone). Your husband is the one that’s crazy (for trying to kill himself).

  3. You’re very emotional at the moment and are looking for meaning and reason in your life so much your seeing/hearing things that aren’t there. I suggest that you go running or help in a soup kitchen and not try to brainwash yourself, or at-least get into Sikhism or something…

  4. Sometimes they can be connected. But sorry to say it, this is reality. People can have a really horrible turn of events but if you want to choose something that you think will comfort you then go to church. Reality is hard but you’re not crazy and you’re not having a spiritual awakening. But if you want to become religious that’s your choice.

  5. You’re not crazy and I’m pretty sure you’re not having any “awakening”
    Things things do happen. It’s just that people tend to have the “it can’t happen to me” mindset, so when it does happen, it’s kind of a shock.
    And if you’re husband has to resort to that to keep you around, you’re probably better of without him.

  6. See if you can find “Life After Death, 1977” a study/film of people that had died and been brought back to life. All that had tried to kill themselves went strait to hell! All others went to the judgment area. They were saved and pulled back here to earth. There are other studies of this too.

  7. Check the menu!
    Christianity is a powerful primitive religious fetish that still manages to blend into our modern society using ONLY the marketable stories in the Bible, but not the real ugly ones! The Bible writers say that the GOD that they put together FORCED the Jews to eat their own children for dinner NOT AS A PUNISHMENT, but as a natural “WILL OF GOD!” God NEVER objected any cannibalism. In fact, God never issued any law against cannibalism. God Jehovah/Jesus/Trinity or what have you is on record forcing his especially “chosen” people to slaughter and cook their own children for dinner! The Bible God prohibits the Jews to eat PIGS, but NOT CHILDREN! There is a complaint about sacrificing children to God Moloch, but NOT TO THE BIBLE GOD! Today, Abraham would be in jail for the attempted murder of his son Isaac, and Jephthah would be on death row for having his own young virgin daughter sacrificed on the Altar of The LORD (Judges 11), but in the Bible stories they are the Heroes of the Faith! Any religion back then was as primitive and savage as you can’t possibly imagine. The Bible God is totally powerless to teach the Jews any lesson without FORCING them to eat their own children for dinner, but they still won’t convert to Christianity. The Jews know they got themselves into a mess of historical proportions for writing the Bible. No other evil hurt humanity as much as the Judeo/Christian/Muslim religion based on the Jewish Bible. IMHO, the Jews MUST come up with a solution so we can all live in peace!
    According to the Bible writers Palestine was a “Land Flowing with Milk and Honey,” but after the Jews invaded the “Promised Land” the milk and honey stopped flowing! So then they began to promise that “God will make the desert to blossom like a rose!” The perennial carrot hanging from a string at the end of a stick is still working not only for religious Jews, but it is earning MILLIONS for the Clergy & Preachers especially since the going to “Heaven” when you die idea was put together!
    Leviticus 26:29 – (without warning of any evil or any punishment God is anxiously saying to his Holy people) YOU WILL eat the flesh of your sons and the flesh of your daughters…* (*this Jewish God is not suggesting that they eat PIG against his Law, instead he is FORCING them to eat their own “kosher” CHILDREN for dinner!)
    The tender meat of an 8 year old boy or girl flavored with some spicy Texas sauce would taste delicious to any weird Christian pedophile! The Bible writers say, that to non-Christians the Bible stories are “FOOLISHNESS” (1 Cor 2:14). Actually they are not foolishness, but PUKING SMUTTY CRAP that faithfully tithing Christians know how to reject on the spot!
    Deuteronomy 28:53-57 – Because of the suffering that your enemy will inflict on you during the siege* (*God is anxiously saying), YOU WILL EAT THE FRUIT OF THE WOMB, THE FLESH OF THE SONS AND DAUGHTERS the LORD your God has given you* (*no “spiritually speaking” here! The Jews won’t eat PIGS in obedience to God! But THEY WILL EAT their own children!) Even the most gentle and sensitive man* (*not a gay, or a “Godless” atheist, or an abortionist, but a FAITHFUL CHOSEN MAN OF GOD!) among you will have no compassion on his own brother or the WIFE HE LOVES or his SURVIVING CHILDREN, and he will not give to one of them any of the flesh of his children that he is eating…* (*God hates very much that you don’t share your favorite child dish with your spouse!)
    Jeremiah 19:9 I* (*God, NOT SATAN, but GOD!) WILL MAKE THEM EAT THE FLESH OF THEIR SONS AND DAUGHTERS* (Christians still claim that NOBODY can resist the WILL of this John 3:16 God! The Jews WILL BE FORCED TO EAT their own children for dinner no matter what, while at the same time gays must be stoned to death, along with PREGNANT ladies who are alleged to have committed adultery, or for not having cried when raped!)
    The Bible writers are excited to predict that when the “666” trademark will be set up, Christians WON’T BE ABLE TO BUY OR SELL FOOD or anything else without it. Will they start eating their own children again like in the good old Bible times?
    Ezekiel 5:10 – Therefore in your midst fathers WILL EAT THEIR CHILDREN*… (*this HOLY CRAP is ALL OVER THE BIBLE! Christians don’t see it because they are now in love with “Jesus”)
    Any kind of government would allow their people to eat pork instead of their own children! It took Moses 2 men to carry a single cluster of gigantic size grapes to show the Israelites how plentiful was the Land of Palestine that they were going to invade (Num 13:23)! The Bible writers had well fed Jews in Egypt COVETING something that wasn’t theirs just before giving them the 10 Commandments with the “Thou shalt not covet!” stamped in them! As the Jews invaded the “Promised Land Flowing with Milk and Honey” they never found the giant grapes. They had to eat their own children to survive! Hardly any lady needed to abort in those days. God FORCED them to eat their chiildren after they were born! It is written ALL over the Bible!
    Lamentations 4:10 – With their own hands COMPASSIONATE WOMEN* (*Not lesbians or atheist ladies, but “Jesus loving” women!) HAVE COOKED THEIR OWN CHILDREN…!* (*DONE! as God had promised! But relax all this crap was in the mind of the Bible writers! Our US Government officials swear on this smutty Bible — no wonder we are so screwed up!)
    CANNIBALISM in the Bible is in FULL EXPLICIT CONTEXT that is IMPOSSIBLE for any Preacher to “spiritualize” and make it disappear!
    2 Kings 6:26-29 As the king of Israel was passing by on the wall, a woman cried to him, “Help me, my lord the king!” The king replied, “If the Lord* (*God/Jehovah/Allah/Trinity/Jesus!) does not help you, where can I get help for you? Then he asked her, “What’s the matter?” She answered, “This woman said to me, ‘Give up your son so we may eat him today, and tomorrow we’ll eat my son.’ So we cooked my son and ate him* (*BTW, it tasted delicious!!!). The next day I said to her, ‘Give up your son so we may eat him, but she had hidden him!* (*GODAMMIT! She cheated!)
    They were all COMPASSIONATE “Godly,” not atheist, or Lesbian, but heterosexual women who HAVE SLAUGHTERED AND COOKED THEIR OWN CHILDREN FOR DINNER at the tune of “The LORD is my Shepherd I shall not have any want” (Psa 23)!
    Isaiah 49:15 “Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I* (*God) WILL NOT FORGET YOU!* (*God is very consistent, he may have you have your child for dinner!)
    The last bunch of Bible writers claim that God the Son Jesus Christ was beaten to a pulp thoroughly tenderized and heavily marinated in Roman soldiers’ spit to become the “Spotless Lamb of God” nailed TOTALLY NAKED to a Holy Cross in a primitive Heathen ritual to cleanse the “sin” of Eve in her quest for knowledge! BTW, there is no record that the Roman soldiers ever dressed the genital area of their victims in a white diaper or that anybody nailed to a cross enjoyed a foot rest so they could have a long chat on religious issues within hearing distance of the Bible writers! In the Holy Communion the Christians now snack Jesus’ delicious SPIT FLAVORED MEAT and, like vampires, DRINK HIS BLOOD to go to Heaven when they die (John 6:53)! Since the cannibalistic fetish is all over the Bible the forever snacking God the Son Jesus Christ in the Holy Communion is so NATURAL to Christians!
    The Bible writers say that God’s enemies ought to be killed in their infancy when it is easier to get rid of them! That’s a bit smarter than Allah getting the Holy Jihadists to bomb themselves in a busy city street!
    Psalm 137:8-9 * O Daughter of Babylon, doomed to destruction, HAPPY is he who repays you for what you have done to us* (*Holy Vendetta!) –he who seizes your infants and DASHES them against the rocks* (*after the kids are dashed against the rocks they can be cooked for dinner, or trashed in the dumpster!)
    Needed abortions today are for HUMANE reasons! Only the fetus is destroyed not a born child! Obviously, the Bible God wants some grown children of the “enemy” to be dashed to pieces while the kids of his chosen people are cooked for dinner!
    Isaiah 13:16 (KJV) Their little ones also WILL BE DASHED TO PIECES before their eyes; Their houses will be plundered AND THEIR WIVES RAVISHED* (*not fondled, but ravished!).
    In the erotic mind of the Bible writers any lady would be ravished to their orgasmic delight, while their children are being DASHED TO PIECES. Some Christians, especially in the Clergy are getting off like mad worshipping this kinda GOD!)
    Revelation 2:23 (In his apocalyptic “revelation” Jesus Christ says) I WILL STRIKE HER CHILDREN DEAD* (*abortionists destroy fetuses ONLY WHEN NEEDED, but JESUS is killing real children! Most right wing Christians really love to hear that Jesus is going to kill the children in the wrong Church! They get rich selling books on “Jesus loves the little children,” but only of the right Church brand!). Then ALL THE CHURCHES WILL KNOW that I am he who searches hearts and minds and I will repay each of you according to your deeds.* (*not even the Mafia talks like that in public! For Christians to be “CHRIST LIKE” must include killing children in the wrong Churches… spiritually speaking, of course!)

  8. I believe you are having a hard time. God and all that spiritual stuff is all in your head, but if going to church and believing that god is doing all that stuff to you to ‘spiritually awake’ you, then just go. Personally I think that the common perception of gods is that they are kind and loving, in which case they would not inflict the kind of suffering that people have to endure. But, whatever gives you comfort. Peace be with you soon.

  9. These things are all part of life. Death, sickness, stress, fear, anxiety, good times, bad times and all the rest. This si where we have to trust in God because there are things that come into our lives that we have no control over and we are tossed like a bottle in the ocean. Here is what Jesus said:
    Mat 7:24-27 KJV Therefore whosoever heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, which built his house upon a rock: (25) And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock. (26) And every one that heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them not, shall be likened unto a foolish man, which built his house upon the sand: (27) And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell: and great was the fall of it.
    Notice that the wise man and the foolish man both lived in the same neighborhood because they both had the same storms in thier lives! Jesus never prmised we would never have any storms but that we would not fall and he would kead us through them. The problem is I don’t want to go through them I want to go around them! But our God says we are going through them!
    Isa 43:1-3 KJV But now thus saith the LORD that created thee, O Jacob, and he that formed thee, O Israel, Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine. (2) When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee. (3a) For I am the LORD thy God, the Holy One of Israel, thy Saviour:
    Notice it says when NOT IF!

  10. You’re fine. It’s only normal to feel anxiety when life throws you a curve that forces you to look at reality. Find a good therapist and work through your feelings and do nice things for yourself and take it easy on yourself. Your husband does not belong to you, he’s his own person. I’m sure trying to leave your husband means something has been wrong all along. Have you ignored problems until now no one in the family can ignore it any longer? You’re finally facing the result of the decisions you have made and yes – awakening. You now realize all the mess you have made and the work it would take to clean it up seems daunting.
    A choice between reality (tree of life) and religion (fruit of good and bad) is a catharsis at times like this. If there is a god, then where is he? Its an opportunity to really consider the reality of what God can really be if he allows such suffering in his followers. Its an opportunity to question your beliefs because continuing seems impossible to do and remain sane.
    jesus was supposed to Jewish, and Judaism believes in reality as the supernatural. jesus taught demon possession and fear of the paranormal and hell for not believing – and that has nothing whatsoever to do with Judaism. muslims used xtian scripture to create the quran and xtians used Jewish scripture to create the old testament. Jewish scripture is parables, but xtians and muslims read their versions as literal history – polar opposites.
    Historically, xtians have caused havoc due to hysteria, and xtianity keeps morphing into new denominations to keep from facing it’s past. The religion itself does what each xtian has to do – change or face the reality of the past, and facing the past is difficult and painful – but well worth the effort.


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