I’m have a bit of an existential crisis. I don’t know why we’re here, we’re all going to die one day, and I think why not just get it over now? I’m not going to kill myself (even though I often want to, and I do see a therapist, take medication, etc etc but I’ve been depressed since kindergarten)
What I mean is, when they have a near-death encounter such as an accident, cancer, heart attack, why are religious/spiritual people so happy and thanking God for letting them live? I don’t understand that. If you believe you are going to Heaven, wouldn’t you want to get there ASAP?
And then when a loved one is sick, and they pull through, but they’re now incapacitated in some way, why are we happy that “at least they’re alive!” Wouldn’t they be happier in Heaven with God instead?
I would like to break out of this existential crisis & this is one of the issues with it that bothers me. Often life seems pointless and cruel, in my opinion, w/ all the suffering and abuse of children.
I do have a child. He is almost 3 and he is severely disabled from birth (quadriplegic cerebral palsy). I’m sure that this has further tainted my view on things. I would not kill myself and leave him here motherless.